Monday, November 03, 2008
Baby Bug is turning 1 year old soon.
Baby Bug will be turning 1 year old this Saturday and, although her mom has called a few times since she was returned home, we haven't seen an invitation to her first birthday party in our mailbox as we were told we would.
I know, I shouldn't have expected it and I guess I really didn't, but that doesn't stop me from feeling sad about the reality that we won't get to be a part of her first birthday or anything else for that matter.
During one of these phone conversations with Baby Bug's mom, I mentioned that we'd like to give Baby Bug a photo album as a gift from us...you know, the hard bound kind that you can make on Snapfish. She seemed truly excited by the idea and told me that it'd be a perfect gift because they don't have many decent pictures of Baby Bug, especially during the time she was with us. We took a ton of pictures of Baby Bug to capture her beautiful smile!
Despite the fact that it appears we won't be seeing Baby Bug on her first birthday, I've still designed and ordered the photo book. I'll just mail it to them. I was careful to include only pictures of Baby Bug on her own or with her parents (we took some pictures of the 3 of them together), so it would be a book all about her and not at all about us.
I just don't want Baby Bug to have this glaring gap in her life history from 3 weeks to 9 months old, especially when we have cute pictures to commemorate those months for her.
Yes, I know it's obvious that after 3 months of her being gone, I still miss her. Most days I'm fine and keep busy with our other two little ones, but every now and then, I'm reminded of Baby Bug in some small way. Her upcoming 1st birthday is actually a rather large reminder.
((sigh)) I pray for her happiness often.